Fiore di loto

Wanting to keep smiling to life, to be capable of feel beauty and wonder at it. Having been and still being on a transitional period of my life, ( just moved back in my country in order to built here with my beloved a brand new life) I feel the urge to move forward, I can't appreciate the present, often it seems to me that it is useless waste of time. Frustrations and fears to never accomplish what I long for, makes me feel at loss. I'm completely and unhealthily centered and focused on outside: mostly on hasting the process towards getting living with my beloved, in our house, establishing my self in a more defined position. Centered on the couple, dependent....incapable of finding a sense outside it. In short aware that I need to center again on myself and find out a kind of balance within me before The rest settles !!!!